Here I sit. Monday morning. Day off and usually I'd be on my way to Barre but I had to take today off. I did something in the past 2 weeks that really roughed my knees up. For those of you who know me, my knees have never been good and Barre was good for a long time because of pilates because my knees got stronger but right now, my knees are tweaked.
I did something 2 weeks ago and felt a pull and things haven't been the same since. Saturday during "knee dancing" I couldn't stay in it, I felt a serious pull in my right knee, which Sunday my instructor helped me modify, which was awesome but yesterday during the day, I couldn't sit how I wanted to on the couch because my knee on the right inside hurt a lot.
I woke up this morning, wanting to go but attempting to give myself permission to not go. I wanted to get 21 in 31 days this month. We all know I can do it but I can't. My body is MESSED up from the last challenge. I think it was nice for our studio owner to suggest another challenge but when you have body issues like me, it isn't the best idea. I think my goal every month should be between 16-20 classes. I think doing more than that for my body is unrealistic because of the physical pain I'm in.
I know these all sound like excuses and I shouldn't be making excuses and I'm trying not to, I'm only trying to give myself permission for missing. Physical pain is serious and I only have one body so I need to rest.
Off to the chiropractor I go this week!
Monday, October 19, 2015
Friday, October 2, 2015
Class 30 of the 30 in 35 challenge
2013
9/12/15. 9/19/15 9/29/15
9/12/15 9/29/15
The top photo is one I've shared a few times but it was December 2013. The bottom is September 2015. I was so embarrassed of the top photo for so long but now I'm so proud of how far I've come. It's very cool to see through pictures, which as I've said before, but for you folks, photos were something I avoided. I also have lingering issues with my stomach despite my hard work at the Barre for these past 29 days.
It was a hard journey. I took 30 classes! This challenge has taught me that I can go everyday (almost) and I can get up early. It's better to go early, despite not always being at peak performance. Yesterday morning, for example, I was called on the on-call emergency phone at 4am. I knew I'd be getting up at 5:15am. The situation wasn't complete until 4:45am. I did get back into my bed, hoping the cats would come and snuggle. Then I thought, "if I don't go now, when am I going to go?" That's a real concern. I know I have to hit 30 but even if I didn't, it's important for me to take 60 minutes of movement, for myself. I'm putting myself and my body first.
If I commit to working out, even if it's a low impact workout, which doesn't burn a TON of calories, I'm clearly getting results. It's giving me confidence that I don't think I otherwise had. Growing up the fat kid was not easy. Being teased for my weight was the worst. I'm finally at a place where I can see the work I'm doing is not only good for my body but good for my mind and soul. I'm working hard and challenging myself! I love it.
Up next: 21 in 30 days! Here goes nothing!
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